I'm back!!! hahaha...

I had stop blogging for 3 yrs...

and today, at this moment, i decided to start blogging again...

maybe because this is the best place for me to let out every single feelings from my heart...

or maybe because my friends are doing the same thing...

i dunnoe...but i'm back babeh... and this time i hope it will last longer...hahaha...

3 yrs is such a long time huh...so let see what my life had turn me into for this past 3 yrs...

am i married??? nah... engaged??? nope... or in a relationship??? NO!!!

i am still the old me...single BUT i'm not sure whether my heart is willing to be available or not...

of coz i've met a few guys along the journey...

those sweet talker, cheater, liar, hypocrite, jerk and etc type of guy...

i could 'smell' them from far as if i have a sensor machine that will make a loud siren when i'm near them...

too much heartbreak make me what i am today...

how should i say it??? a part of me would love to be love by someone (a guy of coz)...but a part of me is scared of getting hurt again...

or maybe i just don't have a heart anymore...but if i don't have a heart how am i suppose to get hurt??? DUH!!! (silly me)...

maybe i'm having a commitment phobia...

i almost...not almost actually i had fall and i'm still 'falling' for a guy...

but i know it just wouldn't work out between us so i decided to 'run away' from him...

better getting hurt now while it is still fresh then later rite???

but as much as i wanted to forget him...he's everywhere (not physically) around me...

seriously i could see his face everytime i close my eyes...it's bothering me...

guess i need to keep on running faster and faster and faster until i could get him out of my mind and my heart...

and i will keep on running away from guy and relationship until the day that someone will be chasing me and stop me from running...

because he will tell me "u don't have to run anymore because i'm here to walk together with u..hand in hand to our future together..." and he really mean what he says...

i know the moment will come...he will come to me one day and stop me from running away...