luv...guy & relationship...

"Oh sweet joy, the joy of falling in love, of being in love. Those first few years of being in love, they were only the beginning. Twenty phone calls a day just to hear his voice, sex every night until the early hours of the morning, ignoring friends, favouring nights in curled up in the couch instead of going out, eating so much you both put weight on, supporting one another at family do's, catching roving eyes as they studied one another in secret, existing only in the world to be with them, seeing your future, your babies in his eyes, becoming apart of someone else spiritually, mentally ,sexually and emotionally."

I've gone through my old novels and found this statement in one of it...
I really luv wat had been written in it coz i think dat it's true...
Y do we only find the joy of being in luv at the early stage of the relationship???
y can't it juz last forever???
I mean, if u're life dun stop becoz u're falling in luv...
Then y stop to be in luv???

I've been single for almost 3yrs & ppl might think dat it's cool...
but honestly, it's not cool at all...
coz everyone around me r in a relationship & i will b the 1 left out...
they will have stories about their relationship to talk about over dinner...
they will have someone to talk to on the phone & sms with even wen we r busy shopping...
and eventhough i will have some stories to talk about the guy dat i'm dating on dat time...
but it wouldn't be the same coz they're talking about their guy & i'm talking about some guy dat dun belongs to me or worst he could b someone else's guy...hahaha...
and i still dun understand y can't the right guy juz come to me rite now???
where is he???
is he taking a boat or a sail or a train???
what took him so long???
dun he realize dat i've been waiting???
d problem is dat wenever i wanna b free of commitment then d guyz will b lining up to b attach 2 me...
but rite now wen i'm ready & dying to b attach to sumbody...
no one come to me...
NO ONE!!!
it's pathetic isn't it???
so now i juz dunnoe wat to do...
wat should i do???
could anybody help???

wedding...

haiz...
i used to like going to weddings before...
looking at the bride & groom, the 'pelamin', the whole event & dream about what my wedding will look like...
i used to luv being apart of the wedding...
used to be the flower girl, then the bridesmaid...
but now as time past by...
i juz hate going to wedding...
hate to look at all those things that i used to luv to look at...
and yesterday i had to go to my cousin's wedding...
she's one of my close cousin...
we used to have the girl's day out wenever i came to KL, we shared our luv story & now she's married...
i swear that i was about to cry wen i saw her & her husband walked on the aisle...
i juz dunnoe y i get so emotional...
maybe because right now i think that i will never b in that situation...
i juz dunnoe y...
but i have a feelings that i will never ever find my soulmate...
he juz would never ever come...
i try my best not to think about it that way but then i can't stop myself...
anyway...
the wedding was simple, sweet & nice...
will update this blog with d pictures of the wedding later...

after that...
me, my sister & my brother in-law went to Pavilion KL...
i bought an Esprit t-shirt & a Guess jeans...
i luv the jeans so much...
can't wait 2 wear it...
but of coz i have to cut it first...
it doesn't really matter coz that jeans could actually cheer me up & give me back my mood...

at last!!!

At last!!!
after all these months i get 2 finally write sumthing in my blog...
i've planned to start blogging again at d beginning of d year...
but then i was so busy with life & luv until i dun have time 2 go online...
gosh!!!
i really need 2 install d internet in our new house...

By d way, end of last year, me & my housemates juz move in 2 an apartment in subang...
but then starting from 2morow i'm going 2 b staying in d house alone...
coz both of them will be busy with their life until they dun have time 2 come back 2 dat house...
anyway, it's not a big deal...
as i could have d house all 2 myself...
hehehe... (evil smile)

pool party anyone???